*crawls out of the dark*
I.. don't really know if this is the right place to come out to, buuuuut I have a thing that bothers me about BR at the moment..
And I want to talk about it before it makes me distance myself more as I already am (because I am totally stressed and worn out because of hospital work from 8am to 11am and then 12am to 5pm school everyday).
To tell it short: It's about me and the "singing-harmonies"-issue if I can call it like that.
I'll try to sum it up shortly:
- I love to cover, I love to sing harmonies and I'm capable of hearing a lot of them and if i can't clearly hear them then i invent a load. It's like that.
- I like to help out people in their PPs if i'm a part of it, if nobody can hear the harmonies to sing them. I even got that far as to join a PP i was not interested in and pick a small part just in order to help out singing all harmonies. I am doing hour-long (!) recording sessions to get out the best result of all kinds of harmonies that I am capable of doing and I'm getting GUILTY if i can't sing them or don't even try them from the start. Cause for me a cover has to have harmonies (best all original ones) in order to sound perfect in the end (unless the original has NO harmonies and no feel for harmonies).
- BUT. At the moment there is another feeling coming up in me and it is being sad and disappointed and how some members treat me when it comes to harmonies. I feel like.. the idiot who does the harmonies. Not more not less. I feel like when I join a cover everyone expects me to do ALL harmonies and doesn't even try to sing them themselves. IF i joined a PP and don't sing the harmonies (because hello no time at all for hourlong recording sessions that maybe take several days) everyone is disappointed and goes like "well the cover could've sounded much better with harmonies" in the release thread or even in the PP thread while mixing. If that wouldn't be hurting me somehow enough, WHEN I do submit my files (and because of all the harmonies i do - which everyone expects me to do - of course there is a LOAD of files), i get reactions like:
(sorry to quote, but I at least will not say the name)
I am the next victim of working with Cho's bajillion files.... NUUUUUUUUU
answer to that from someone:
That's Cho for you :D
It may be just a feeling as I know you don't mean it personal and evil and you want to be fun if you write comments like that, but...
It hurts, okay? :(
It makes me feel like a worthless idiot who is just here to sing harmonies which then are sometimes not even thanked for and not appreciated because mixing-work..
I.. don't even know why I'm writing this here, I just wanted to get it off my chest because it bothers me.
AGAIN: I love to sing harmonies and i love to help all of you out in your projects if it comes to harmonies, cause the result is wanted to be good, right? :)
I am just asking to show a little more of respect towards me as it is really a lot of work to do all those harmonies and I do them despite having no time..
Sorry for bothering you with my problems again, but I want to be open about it..
I love you all no matter what and i'm not angry, ok?